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Proud Parents of 11…….

11 baby cichlids that is!

I just noticed two nights ago that one of our cichilds was carrying something in her mouth. I did a little research and figured it was eggs.
I decided the next day to buy her a separate tank to reduce stress and to ensure that the babies were not eaten if she released them soon. I figured we had at least a week or two before she was ready to let them out of her mouth…..but I was SO wrong!

She released them tonight! We have 11 little tiny baby fishes! I’m attaching pictures but they didn’t turn out so great. You can see the darker ones easier but there are a bunch of light colored ones you can hardly make out due to the gravel being so light too.

Enjoy the pics and I’ll be sure to update again soon!

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Bad News Thursday

No good news here, just a bunch of bad news.

NBN laid me off today! As of today I am unemployed.

Jessica Kennedy
Jessica Kennedy

jkennedy@nbnbooks.com

Marketing Manager, Jess Kennedy, is responsible for coordinating sales conferences, trade shows,
including Book Expo America (BEA) and the ALA shows, and trade advertising. Jess joined NBN in
2003 and was initially responsible for all coop processing.

And to top it off I had a root canal done today.

The numbing is starting to wear off and it HURTS! :*(

I foresee a nap coming soon.

I’ve applied for few jobs today. Man it sucks looking for work! Is there such a job that I could get paid to read novels? If so, someone please enlighten me!

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25 Years Old

Today was my birthday!
I celebrated by taking the day off of work and crashing at home today, with Madison.
I played a little bit of WoW and that’s about it.

Gifts:
Lovely cards from Madison and Patrick
$30 cash from father-in-law
$25 iTunes from Kevin & Lori
$30 nail salon gift card from Mom-in-law
$30 Amazon.com gift card from Mom-in-law
Tank top and pjs from my sister Jennifer
fixings to make a complete spaghetti dinner from my Mom
2 quarts of Edy’s ice cream from Patrick (yeah, he’s not so great at the whole gift thing but I had a bowl of ice cream tonight and it was good)

Overall it was a good day. I’m going to end it by reading a bit from my newest book.

I’d have to say the best gift I’ve received, even though it wasn’t given as such, was:

from my co-worker Eliza. It’s an ARC of Stephenie Meyer’s upcoming adult release. I’m afraid to read it cause I will just want more Stephenie and there isn’t any!!!!!

Thanks to everyone for the gifts!

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Thanksgiving

I had a great Thanksgiving! I took a whole week off and enjoyed staying home with Madison.

We had Shawna, Rob, and Efrim stay with us over the holiday. It was tons of fun. The kids played together very well. We took them to the park nearly everyday.

We had dinner at Uncle Dee and Aunt Nicki’s house with most of the family. It was great. Patrick, Shawna, Rob, and I made TONS of mashed potatoes for the dinner.

We also had Ed and Kim over to our house to enjoy an evening of chicken corn soup, blueberry muffins, and board games.

We’re ready to kick off for the next holiday: Christmas!!!

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Depression

October 31, 2007
Mood: encouraged, slightly motivated

Entry:
Yesterday’s meeting with Marianne and Davida just made my issue more of an issue because it’s not only affecting me but my co-workers as well. Knowing this makes me feel selfish and unworthy and like a failure. All these things I know that I don’t want to be but I feel trapped and unable to escape my current situation. The things I want i.e. to do a good job at work and at home are there in y mind but I can’t communicate to my body. My body wants to sit, unfeeling, be left alone from others, not thinking, just being. I enjoy reading It is my escape from my life into a world that is 100 times better than mine. If I’m not reading I’m listening to my iPod or sleeping. I haven’t been able to give 100% at work for a very long time. That alone kills me.

And after yesterday’s meeting it cannot be ignored, which is what I’m best at. I’ve developed the mind set that I don’t care! about anything. But the problem is that I do care, I just can’t bring myself mentally or physically to cooperate enough to strive towards the things that need to be done i.e. cleaning, working cooking etc. and a major one has been sleeping. I’ve corrected that recently. I’ve been exhausted the past few nights and have gone to bed much earlier than normal. A normal bedtime for me has been 1:30 – 2:00 am w/ getting up at 9:00 am, getting to work at 10:30 – 11:00 am when I’m supposed to be there at 8:30 am. That is a huge issue. Since I’ve been going to bed much earlier this week I’ve been able to correct that.

My goals are to care. Stop feeling like I don’t matter. Stop feeling tired, exhausted, unmotivated, and mopey.

I want to matter, want to be worthy and productive at work and home.

I want to be less snappy, tense, and irritable. I want to be happy but I don’t want to fake it, which I’m pretty sure I’m good at faking; until now. I’m an open book now — quite literally too.

I want to be excited to go to work and want to do a good job at what I do – not just do the minimum that is expected from me but to do as I used to, which was above and beyond what is expected. I used to enjoy working at 110% but now I find it a struggle to emit 50%. The same is true for home too.

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Too Much Traveling!

I’ve been away on business this past week, returned on Wednesday. I was attending the American Library Association Annual Conference (ALA) in Washington, D.C. It’s a large trade show for librarians to browse the publishing houses and such.

It was by far the most boring thing I’ve done in a long time! There were hardly any attendees in our booth at any given amount of time. I didn’t have to arrange any author signings or catering like at BEA so I basically just stood around for 8 hours. And I did that for 5 days! Unlike BEA I had a lot of time out of the booth as well to wander around the exhibit halls.

The hotel I stayed at was fabulous! The Fairmont Washington on M & 24th. It had a large bathroom, small patio, and a stocked refrigerator. And it wasn’t too pricey at $199/night, with the group rate. The internet wasn’t so great. They didn’t offer wireless in the rooms so I had to sit at the desk to play WoW.

My next trip is August 23-24 for the Sales Conference in Alexandria, VA.